I’ll miss you, dear grandma. It was on March 7, 2018, coinciding with the 21st day of Bhutanese calendar, early in the morning I received a called from younger sister Dorji, and informed; “acho, Ama dhe-na Ngaze Sesa”, she murmured and cut the call. I became wordless. I didn’t make further inquiry. This news was as expected since for the last two days I has bad omen in my dream, which signalled something might happen soon within the family. It was 6:37 am that sister informed me while I was just in the middle of my usual prayer. So I continued prayer and made dedication especial to late grandma’s swift rebirth. Later, I called uncle to visit H.E. Khenpo Thubtan Dorji Rinpoche’s residence for seeking Phowa.
Her untimely demise is greatly lost to us. She was 77 years old. Though, she was seriously ill for the last couple of months and has suffered a lot. To me losing her is unbelievable and unbearable. She gave birth to 4 daughters and 5 sons and rendered services to them till they are fully grown up. Not only for her kids but she also equally helped and morally supported her grandsons and sisters.
Last day I met her was on January 28-31, 2018. She was excited when I offered some biscuits, juices, sweets, soaps and butter lamp, could see a smile on her face. And also she was happy with seeing and meeting together itself. While returning back, she advised me, to stay well and told she won’t meet me hereon. Thus, words came true now. But I assured her that I’ll be there during her funeral rites to pay last tribute and will conduct good merits that’ll help her soul made her smile once again. I assure her I’ll hoist prayer flags, offer butter lamps, and necessary rituals that ‘d help the deceased soul. She responded; that’s more than enough and Thank you in advance. Moreover, my absence during her funeral rites may also indicate, no love and concern to my beloved grandma. on the other hand, there might be lot’s of speculation why I didn’t turn-up. Thus, to fulfil my promise and assurance, I decided to attend her funeral rites on March 11/13, 2018.
Though, you are physically not with us. We’ll remember you forever and will dedicate whatever merits in your name. May Buddha of Limitless Light blessed you to take a swift rebirth of Human being very soon.
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